In a heartbeat, I'll be there for you.
In a heartbeat, no one else will do.
My life revolves around NDP for now, seriously it's a fucking chore to go to the floating platform every week. Listening and hearing the same songs and watching the same performance over and over again is so agonizing. Well one more month to the big day of our country and then it's over.
It's been a well since I felt sick and my immune system finally broke down due to massive binging on alcohol for the past weeks, that is not good. Temperature rose after PT on monday and i chose to self-medicate instead of getting ATT C because i don feel like going home, anyway stay in camp also sleep, go home also sleep might as well stay in camp :/
It's so distressing to know that when you're at your lowest, you tend to break down easily.
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Taking a break from life.
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I want my bike license so badly! And they just have to implement this new rule recently that we have to clear our theory before we can start our practical. So basically i'm stucked, god dam it.
Traveling would be so much easier and i would definitely zhng my bike, the exterior only :D
I was thinking about this on my way home today and guess wad? My dad talked to me suddenly, like real sudden about that and he asked how much a bike cost *hint hint* HAHA! i guess he's gonna the least subsidize my future bike, i was so exhilarated!
He went on talking about entry to a university and I shared with him that I will work first after I ORD before studying. He told me that he and sis would help pay for my fees first and my heart felt warmth after a very long time. I swear to god that I would work doubly hard for my degree for them.
Unspoken love isn't love until it's said.
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I just finished my combat shoot and got my marksman which is worth 200 bucks woo. This is the last time i will be shooting with live rounds but i had fun and this is the kind of experience you can get serving the army, maybe other then becoming a terrorist.
I look like a malay now with short hair and spikes in the middle. I thought it would suit me and would really like to try something new but HECK! I look weird. Nevertheless I can wear a cap if i get more negative feedbacks, rawr!
Oh and I watched pirates of the Caribbean yesterday, it was so freakin awesome! Captain Jack sparrow is still as amazing as the past few series and I'm definitely waiting for the next one. More movies to catch that will be showing in the next few months, niceeeee.
Sometimes, you have to follow your heart if you don't want to lose your mind.
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I'm back to this little corner of mine! Looks like in life you have to go through tons of sticky situations. What really puzzled me is that sometimes your mind and heart don't seem to agree with each other. Have you ever felt this way before?
Well most people will just say just follow your heart, it will lead you to your answers. I did previously and the results was horrendous. Using your mind on the other hand is a little bit different. You use logical reasoning to try and make a decision or solve a problem which sadly kills your brain cells.
They say Pisces rule by their heart. Sorry I gotta apologize because recently been quite a believer of horoscope so bear with me.
I might be an asshole at times, pardon my language but I always think before I act and hurting people isn't my forte unless that bugger started it >: I tried to be a badass before, wanted to play with people feelings and be a self-centered bastard but i guess my humane side forbids me.
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Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I’d wanna hear you say - I remember you
The year is coming to an end very soon, let's move on.
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Maybe what everyone says is true. We are not meant to be together, friends will do? :/
COME ON JAMES YOU CAN DO IT!
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It's been three days already.
You have no idea how sucky i feel.
Whenever I turned on my computer, I would log on to facebook and the very first thing I do is to go to your wall. I regret deleting my twitter account hoping I would not see updates of your life and maybe just maybe forget everything, how foolish.
And that day when you send me that very cold message on msn, I didn't know what to reply you and I chose to run away from the problem. How I wish I could tell you how I feel then but I'm so afraid, afraid of making things worse.
You used to smile when you saw me, hug me for no reason, talk to me without any conditions and I miss that.
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like a boss
Tuesday, July 5, 2011
