Remember yesterday - walking hand in hand
Love letters in the sand - I remember you
Through the sleepless nights and every endless day
I’d wanna hear you say - I remember you
The year is coming to an end very soon, let's move on.
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Maybe what everyone says is true. We are not meant to be together, friends will do? :/
COME ON JAMES YOU CAN DO IT!
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It's been three days already.
You have no idea how sucky i feel.
Whenever I turned on my computer, I would log on to facebook and the very first thing I do is to go to your wall. I regret deleting my twitter account hoping I would not see updates of your life and maybe just maybe forget everything, how foolish.
And that day when you send me that very cold message on msn, I didn't know what to reply you and I chose to run away from the problem. How I wish I could tell you how I feel then but I'm so afraid, afraid of making things worse.
You used to smile when you saw me, hug me for no reason, talk to me without any conditions and I miss that.
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I’ll think of you in the morning when I wake up to wash up, lace on my boots, button up my uniform and prepare to go to camp.
I'll think of you on my journey to the other half of Singapore while playing my favourite songs on my mp3.
I'll think of you when I'm doing pre-checks on the huge vehicle with my hands all dirty before moving out.
I'll think of you while driving around Singapore with my instructor and vehicle commander who are sleeping beside me.
I'll think of you when going through tons of obstacles that send my vehicle swaying from side to side in the forests.
I'll think of you when driving in the dark at night, checking my mirrors every second and at a safe speed to keep my instructor mouth shut.
I'll think of you when I sign my name, ready to book out.
I'll think of you again on my long journey back home, from Mandai to Tampines.
I'll think of you while lying on my bed before I fell asleep unknowingly due to fatigue.
And I wonder, do you miss me as much as I do?
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I'm feeling so terrible now. I thought I was strong and brave enough to let go of everything but why do I still think of her? She's in my mind the whole day and I don't know what the fuck is wrong with me. The thought of her takes my emotions on a roller coaster ride and the question always came back to me, what should I do?
I miss her hysterical laughter that will come out of nowhere.
I miss her randomness which never fails to amaze me.
I miss her late night messages where she whines to me about her work.
I miss her attempts to talk to me in chinese and she always claims she can speak well.
I miss her straightforwardness where we can talk about anything under the sun.
I miss her so badly :(
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Day Five.
Friday, December 31, 2010